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A4 Of Love
December 1st 1999, that was the night my life changed forever,
Little did I know that you would soon become my lover.
Like that first night on your sofa,
I long for you to hold me closer and closer.
More than a lover you became my best mate,
No, more than that you are my soul-mate, I
f my love were a symbol it would be a figure of eight.
It never ends, like the sign of infinity,
I will always have you in my hearts vicinity.
Our relationship was never a formality,
Living together in a world of peaceful normality,
How could our happy play turn into a tragedy?
We travelled parts of Europe and developed as two,
I was hoping to conquer the whole world with you.
The world was ours, no one could suppress,
I used to have dreams of you in a white dress.
That was the future, but it could have happened eventually,
In reality, Just as important to me, was the development of your individuality.
An independent woman who gave me her love,
I never knew if I could be enough, to keep her happy,
To keep you wanting me, This relationship should not be resigned to history.
Amazing together and great apart,
We had this thing called love down to an art,
Now your back in London, this was the start,
of real life, we could have it all,
A career and a relationship?
It is possible.
Now that you've gone, you have left a void,
More upsetting than that, I feel our love has been under employed, We had so much more to give and receive,
This cant be over because I still believe.
Our love came with it's own special obstacles,
It was never a sacrifice or struggle,
Because I always knew we'd be back for a clink and a huggle.
Now this reality is further away,
I hope you invite me back into your life one day.
As you read this, I wish I were there, you could cry on my shoulder,
I could play with your hair and massage your head,
hold you tight as we sleep in bed.
Intellectually and physically we are so complete
A girl so talented I found it hard to compete,
For your love not in competition,
The music we have is a love composition.
Now destiny is with you, you hold our fate,
Don't make the mistake by passing on this,
we could still have the life of loving bliss.
I now understand what has gone wrong, I want us to laugh all night long,
We used to tickle and fight for fun, this needn't be it, the fun had just begun.
We're both reaching our prime and in time things would be better,
please don't give up, you're one of life's competitors. Remember the laughs, the nights that we had? I'm sorry I let things get so bad,
Now you don't want me? I don't understand, I need an a explanation,
this cant simply be because of you life's vocation.
I missed you on the day of your graduation,
Not being able to talk to you adds to the frustration,
Remember the flirtation, conversation we shared,
Now you wont pick up the phone, as if you never cared.
I know this isn't true as your still feeling the pain,
You must be missing 'us' don't treat yourself with disdain,
I don't care what has happened while apart this time,
I will take you back regardless, if it means that you're 'mine'.
I bought you some lilies after 4 and half years,
Not seeing you with them brings me to tears,
did you keep them/throw them away?
If I got them long ago would you stay?
I know I have done wrong, but do you truly believe that we don't belong?
At times I felt that your feelings were so strong,
I helped you through uni and now our love is being flaunted,
Is it my fault that my love is unwanted?
I was the only one to support your move into teaching,
Your decisions in life your family were breaching,
I was there at the start and I want to be at the end, I want my love,
I want my best friend. I understand it is hard for you too I'm not being selfish I just don't know what to do.
If your hurting you can end it all, just pick up the phone and make the call,
Your feelings changed towards me a month or so ago,
you told me I was more important in your life and you wanted me to know.
I felt the luckiest man alive, knowing that you were happy by my side,
My true feelings I tried to hide, I wanted to drop down onto one knee,
But the reality of rejection was too much for me,
Didn't want to scare you away, although I knew I'd give you a ring one day.
Though you're close to me we seem so far apart
Maybe given time you'll have a change of heart
If it takes forever babe then I'm prepared to wait
The day you give your love to me won't be a day too late,
These are not my words but they still ring true,
I'd love to dance the whole night through. o dance again like at Eros and h2o,
will we dance again? I sincerely hope so.
The rhythm of our bodies acting as one,
I could dance from night till the rise of the sun.
We connect so well I'm prepared to fight, for my ideal partner,
we can dance all night.
I understand you need to make your own decisions and mistakes,
I'll give you support or whatever it takes,
We can be together and I will leave you to your decisions,
you can rest assured I wont make any collisions.
The last time we made love I said "I love you", you said it too,
Was this not true? How can this be,
I feel we belong, I hope your feeling this distance is wrong.
The distance in miles is never too long,
as long as we try we will always be strong.
Please don't give up without a fight,
the loving we shared is still in sight,
My heart is emitting a beaconing light,it's guiding you in,
To where you should be, together, please come hug me.
At night now, alone I lay looking for answers in the sky,
Seeming our life is now passing me by,
But I really must know this one thing,
WHY?